4years later and i am still here.
Life has changed dramatically in the last 4 years. 4 years ago today i found out my HIV diagnosis. Four years later i guess i am the same person before i knew of this news. Damn! Damn! what a couple of words can change your life for some it changes life 360 degrees for others its life as usual. but hey i am fine and living my life like its golden as jill scott says. so for those of u that do not know your status i urge you to get tested. be safe and strap it up. I have accomplished alot in the 4 years of my diagnosis i have a great job as an HIV/AIDS youth outreach worker. This job has allowed me to touch alot of lives of youth and make a difference in their lives. I have traveled up and down the east coast due to this job and i will be startin to travel again at the end of next year and alot next year.
This job has allowed me to network and get to know alot of faces who are in the field of HIVAIDS as well as to mentor to youth from all over the country. i havent been sick and i have been taking care of myself. i have seen alot of youung people die due to my work in this field. Sometimes is depresses me to see that but it only makes me a stronger person to know i need to continue to live a long and healthy life, which i will. Today may be a down day for me but i am tryin fto smile knowin that i am lucky to be surrounded by alot of good people in my life. Below is a poem that i wrote about what i was felling today take a moment to read it.
A meaningless heart throbs
from the same heart
sings a sorrowful song
mix thoughts are brought through the eyes
horrific tears
disturbs the most intelligent mind
because of all the hurt,anger and jealousy
that is hidden inside
why
imagine waking up everyday
knowing that your body has been effected
by HIV
Just because the weakend mind
like to play danerous games
by the time it attacks the vain
the only game to play
is the shame and blame game
happy endin does not exist
dreams fade away
and painful death becomes the only exit
it becomes to late to turn back time
and the only question left is why
confusion sweep the air
making it hard to breathe
just because the lips says
it can never happen to me
4 years later and it still hurts