Today wow is a day i will never forget the day that Xavier Johnson passed away and lefted so many people behind. This is a day of healing. A day that will never go away for me. I am still hurt i didnt get to say my official "goodbye" but more i was hurt i got the news 2 weeks after his untimely death. I miss our conversations, i miss the laughter, i miss your smile. You were a great gift and i will cherish it for a lifetime. May your soul rest in peace. Love Always and Forever. Below is the poem left my his widower
The Mourning After...
The sun didn't rise this morning yet the day was still lit....
In the middle of summer, the bitterness of winter sat upon me like a brick
while under the weight of calls of condolence I lay numb and cry
and outside is dark and gloomy without a cloud in the sky...
My sorrow screams and fills the air
as I come to realize he is not here
stolen from me in the prime of life,
my love, my soul, my husband, my wife...
Each tear marches a trail from my heart to my pillow case
that adorns the bed standing silently in this dreadful place
full of the sounds and memories of happier days
that haunt me in painfully surreal ways
as to cause my bones to ache and moan
out of longing for the first love I've even known...
I don't know how I'm going survive or how I'm going to live on
for it's the morning after and my mourning has just begun...
Sweet Dreams
I mourn the lost of the divine,
the voice that rattled me awake each day
and soothed me to sleep each night...
I mourn the lost of the heartbeat
that provided the rythm for my dance,
my symphony, my song...
I mourn the lost of my muse
from whom poured my inspiration, my desire,
my laughter, my joy...
I mourn the lost of my first love
to which I owe my freedom, my vision,
my heart, my life...
Sweet dreams, my X....
May you, the divine X, rest in peace.
2 years later:Xavier Johnson: Never Forgotten